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2001-10-30
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Cast

This is a list of people in my life for reference. There should be a link up in the table of contents above. Its not done yet.

Me - I am me. I live in Dallas (which is cooler than most people think). I'm 15. I'm a 10th grader at Jesuit College Prep. You can learn about me by reading this. I really don't know who I am and who I want to be. I'm in the process of self-discovery. I like to think that I'm different from everyone else. I like to think I can see things others can't. But I know that's not always the case. I suppose that I will change throughout this diary. Thats good though.

My family - I have a mom, a dad, and a little brother. I really like my parents. It is a healthy relationship. Its not along the lines of best friend talk to all the time kind of deal but more of just a mutual support. I know I can go to them if I need. I don't all that often because usually I figure it out on my own. My little brother is pretty annoying. He's a 5th grader though so there's not much I can do. Its a question of maturity. We get along fine but he's the complete opposite of me. Not someone I would normally hang out with if he were my age. But I think he'll mature.

My old grade school friends - These include a large number of people that I grew up with. We all went to school for 8 or 9 years together. They are great people and real fun to hang with and easy to get along with. But sometimes I don't fit. Sometimes I'm just a little too different. I could get along with them all, but I'm wasn't really in any of the groups. Just kind of an outsider.

The Jedi Council - This was about as close as I got to a group or "clique" so to speak. It was four people. Me, Phil, Dan, and Danny. We kind of started it about 7th grade. We had a kind of fascination for star wars and jedi knights are pretty cool anyway. It was fun. We were the geeks so to speak. Me and Danny were the "smart" ones. Phil was the "funny computer genius" and Dan was the "social outcast" in a way. He didn't fit well with the rest of the class but most of the time he fit with us. We used to do stupid things like practice lightsaber moves and create "flight paths" to walk at recess so we could observe people. We even created some little group called ACM. That was pretty fun. But we've all split up. Only Danny goes to school with me anymore.

Danny - We used to be really close but high school kind of seperated us a little. Not much. We still get along and can hang out, but we don't have any classes together or anything. So its kind of hard sometimes. Plus, he is anti-social. He plays calculator games at recess. He's happy with it, but I need a little more social interaction than that. So its a little different now.

My school friends - These are people I see at school and hang out with sometimes. Not all the time but if we have a free period together or what not. They are rather simple relationships but they are still friends.

The other freshmen - I get along with all these guys but they're not really people I would hang out with. They're very typical, immature, normal teenagers. There's nothing wrong with that but its just something that I don't really enjoy. Most of them are fine people but just not anything more to me.

My senior friends - These are seniors at school that I can talk to about stuff. Deep stuff. Like philosophy and life and stuff. They think more than the freshmen and accept me. Its nice to have some people who can understand some of the stuff I think about.

Jospehine - She went to grade school with me and became one of my best friends. Someone I could talk to about anything. I would help her with her problems and she with mine. She was my diary before this. But she goes to Ursuline now and I don't get to talk to her much. I do sometimes but its different because its not seeing her every day.

Georgina (before sometimes referred to as "Her" or "you-know-who" but now given proper respect of her name) - This is a long story. She was an exchange student from Mexico who came for our eighth grade year. She was different than most of the people in my grade and I became good friends with her. But then some crazy state of teenage normality over took me and I ruined it by going beyond friends. I was so "lost in love" that I failed to think of anything else. I followed her around and wouldn't leave her alone. She got sick of it after a month but didn't tell me. So she ignored me and then a month later dumped me. I was so screwed up in thinking that I couldn't let it go and just kept making things worse. I didn't know what I had done wrong and I couldn't ask her about it. When she left at the end of the year, I was still a mess. It took me four and a half months but I got over it and got happy. I took control of my life. I miss having her as a friend though. I don't talk to her anymore. And I regret having her last image of me be one that I feel ashamed of. But I can't change much now. And I've moved on. Every now and then it hits me how I miss her and I get a little bit down but thats not a lot. I'm happy that she came and that I learned.

Paola - She was Georgina's cousin and came with her for a year. She was crazy. Just pure fun. So giddy and hyper and always laughing. I miss that. I miss that happiness. I kind of ignored her when I did the whole Georgina thing and I regret that. I don't talk to her much because I never see her online. Theres nothing I can do though, so I move on.

My diary friend - She lives in El Salvador. This has only made her understand life even more. We think alike in many ways and I am always interested in seeing what she has to write about. If I knew her better I know that she would be someone who understood me. Read her diary. Her user name is simeons-twin

Lina - She's the big sister I never had. She lives in Brazil so her Diary is mostly in Portugese, but she is very important to me.

Thats all I can think of for now. There will be more as I remeber and meet more people.

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	2001-10-30 written @ Cast This is a list of people in my life for reference. There should be a link up in the table of contents above. Its not done yet. Me - I am me. I live in Dallas (which is cooler than most people think). I'm 15. I'm a 10th grader at Jesuit College Prep. You can learn about me by reading this. I really don't know who I am and who I want to be. I'm in the process of self-discovery. I like to think that I'm different from everyone else. I like to think I can see things others can't. But I know that's not always the case. I suppose that I will change throughout this diary. Thats good though. My family - I have a mom, a dad, and a little brother. I really like my parents. It is a healthy relationship. Its not along the lines of best friend talk to all the time kind of deal but more of just a mutual support. I know I can go to them if I need. I don't all that often because usually I figure it out on my own. My little brother is pretty annoying. He's a 5th grader though so there's not much I can do. Its a question of maturity. We get along fine but he's the complete opposite of me. Not someone I would normally hang out with if he were my age. But I think he'll mature. My old grade school friends - These include a large number of people that I grew up with. We all went to school for 8 or 9 years together. They are great people and real fun to hang with and easy to get along with. But sometimes I don't fit. Sometimes I'm just a little too different. I could get along with them all, but I'm wasn't really in any of the groups. Just kind of an outsider. The Jedi Council - This was about as close as I got to a group or "clique" so to speak. It was four people. Me, Phil, Dan, and Danny. We kind of started it about 7th grade. We had a kind of fascination for star wars and jedi knights are pretty cool anyway. It was fun. We were the geeks so to speak. Me and Danny were the "smart" ones. Phil was the "funny computer genius" and Dan was the "social outcast" in a way. He didn't fit well with the rest of the class but most of the time he fit with us. We used to do stupid things like practice lightsaber moves and create "flight paths" to walk at recess so we could observe people. We even created some little group called ACM. That was pretty fun. But we've all split up. Only Danny goes to school with me anymore. Danny - We used to be really close but high school kind of seperated us a little. Not much. We still get along and can hang out, but we don't have any classes together or anything. So its kind of hard sometimes. Plus, he is anti-social. He plays calculator games at recess. He's happy with it, but I need a little more social interaction than that. So its a little different now. My school friends - These are people I see at school and hang out with sometimes. Not all the time but if we have a free period together or what not. They are rather simple relationships but they are still friends. The other freshmen - I get along with all these guys but they're not really people I would hang out with. They're very typical, immature, normal teenagers. There's nothing wrong with that but its just something that I don't really enjoy. Most of them are fine people but just not anything more to me. My senior friends - These are seniors at school that I can talk to about stuff. Deep stuff. Like philosophy and life and stuff. They think more than the freshmen and accept me. Its nice to have some people who can understand some of the stuff I think about. Jospehine - She went to grade school with me and became one of my best friends. Someone I could talk to about anything. I would help her with her problems and she with mine. She was my diary before this. But she goes to Ursuline now and I don't get to talk to her much. I do sometimes but its different because its not seeing her every day. Georgina (before sometimes referred to as "Her" or "you-know-who" but now given proper respect of her name) - This is a long story. She was an exchange student from Mexico who came for our eighth grade year. She was different than most of the people in my grade and I became good friends with her. But then some crazy state of teenage normality over took me and I ruined it by going beyond friends. I was so "lost in love" that I failed to think of anything else. I followed her around and wouldn't leave her alone. She got sick of it after a month but didn't tell me. So she ignored me and then a month later dumped me. I was so screwed up in thinking that I couldn't let it go and just kept making things worse. I didn't know what I had done wrong and I couldn't ask her about it. When she left at the end of the year, I was still a mess. It took me four and a half months but I got over it and got happy. I took control of my life. I miss having her as a friend though. I don't talk to her anymore. And I regret having her last image of me be one that I feel ashamed of. But I can't change much now. And I've moved on. Every now and then it hits me how I miss her and I get a little bit down but thats not a lot. I'm happy that she came and that I learned. Paola - She was Georgina's cousin and came with her for a year. She was crazy. Just pure fun. So giddy and hyper and always laughing. I miss that. I miss that happiness. I kind of ignored her when I did the whole Georgina thing and I regret that. I don't talk to her much because I never see her online. Theres nothing I can do though, so I move on. My diary friend - She lives in El Salvador. This has only made her understand life even more. We think alike in many ways and I am always interested in seeing what she has to write about. If I knew her better I know that she would be someone who understood me. Read her diary. Her user name is simeons-twin Lina - She's the big sister I never had. She lives in Brazil so her Diary is mostly in Portugese, but she is very important to me. Thats all I can think of for now. There will be more as I remeber and meet more people. << back :: forward >>